where pain is just a memory and tears are no more

I see you there hanging on a tree
You bled and then you died and then you rose again for me
Now you are sitting on Your heavenly throne
Soon we will be coming home

When we arrive at eternity's shore
Where death is just a memory and tears are no more
We'll enter in as the wedding bells ring
Your bride will come together and we'll sing

i may have changed some things in this song, but i think these lines are appropriate

i feel like i'm ready for heaven.

i'm sick and tired of life.

of pain, worry, stress. and not just of my own life, but i'm sick of seeing it in the lives of those i truly care about.

and i'm a hypocrite for constantly telling others that are going thru stuff that "God knows what you can handle" and "He won't put you through anything you can't deal with"

because i'm at the end of my rope.

i can't take anymore

i snapped and left my best friend the other day because of one little thing she said.

my friends are hurting and there's nothing i can do

i'm hurting and there's nothing i can do

i can't be the person people expect me to be anymore. i dont want to deal.

i dont want anyone else to tell me that i "need" to do something.

i just want to sleep...but then i wake up

i'm ready for this life and pain and turmoil and stress to be over.

i feel like i'm becoming numb, to the point where i dont feel anymore, and therefore i won't feel bad if/when i hurt someone else.

i want someone to understand

God, save me!!!! i'm sick of life!!! but obviously, i'm not ready to come home, or i'd already be there right?! SAVE ME, FATHER! You love me right? so where are You?

i can't do this anymore!!

i can't!!

Help me! i'm begging You, to turn to me and help me. comfort me. heal my heart. fix me, God cause i'm so screwed up!

I NEED YOU!