so much and not enough

there is nothing wrong with my feelings

unloved

lost

confused

selfish

grateful

angry

sad

stressed

anxious

unknown

frustrated

confident

tired

hurt

useless

hopeful

self-conscious

unstoppable

unable

disappointed

empty

pained

overwhelmed

dismal

joyful

alone

and only in His presence do I find peace

those three words

i know what you're thinking.

but these three are different words

"I NEED YOU..."

you fill in the rest...

i love hearing those words...to know that I'm needed

my friend texted me today..."I need to you to come to walmart with me because I don't want to go alone"

that made me happy

my friend needed me. just to run to the grocery store with him.

but he needed me...and wanted me to go with him

when I hear those three words, i don't ask questions, i'm there

why?

because I love to feel needed

everyone loves to feel needed

so if you need anyone, say it

if they're the good friend you'd hope for, they'll drop everything and be there

i hope everyone knows that if they need me, day or night, i'll be there.

just to sit, i'll try to listen, and know i'll pray for them, because most of the time, that's all i can do

all i'm saying is, i love to be needed

and maybe they dont NEED me but just want me to be there...that's ok too

:)

where pain is just a memory and tears are no more

I see you there hanging on a tree
You bled and then you died and then you rose again for me
Now you are sitting on Your heavenly throne
Soon we will be coming home

When we arrive at eternity's shore
Where death is just a memory and tears are no more
We'll enter in as the wedding bells ring
Your bride will come together and we'll sing

i may have changed some things in this song, but i think these lines are appropriate

i feel like i'm ready for heaven.

i'm sick and tired of life.

of pain, worry, stress. and not just of my own life, but i'm sick of seeing it in the lives of those i truly care about.

and i'm a hypocrite for constantly telling others that are going thru stuff that "God knows what you can handle" and "He won't put you through anything you can't deal with"

because i'm at the end of my rope.

i can't take anymore

i snapped and left my best friend the other day because of one little thing she said.

my friends are hurting and there's nothing i can do

i'm hurting and there's nothing i can do

i can't be the person people expect me to be anymore. i dont want to deal.

i dont want anyone else to tell me that i "need" to do something.

i just want to sleep...but then i wake up

i'm ready for this life and pain and turmoil and stress to be over.

i feel like i'm becoming numb, to the point where i dont feel anymore, and therefore i won't feel bad if/when i hurt someone else.

i want someone to understand

God, save me!!!! i'm sick of life!!! but obviously, i'm not ready to come home, or i'd already be there right?! SAVE ME, FATHER! You love me right? so where are You?

i can't do this anymore!!

i can't!!

Help me! i'm begging You, to turn to me and help me. comfort me. heal my heart. fix me, God cause i'm so screwed up!

I NEED YOU!