New Year, New Thoughts, New Life

so yes, it's almost the end of January, but I haven't felt the need to blog until now.

My Christmas break was definitely not the best and some might consider it one of the worst, but that's life. Don't dwell and pout, move on.

Which is one of my resolutions. But it is much more than a simple resolution, it is a life change. It's not a diet, or a "I promise I'll read my Bible every day of 2011!" because I hate making promises that I may or may not keep.

No, this was something that wasn't just for a year, it is for the rest of my life. I said that I will be positive, I will do things that need to be done even, and especially, when I don't feel like doing them, because I have seen and experienced the outcome of NOT doing something simply because you don't "feel like it". It's miserable. And not fun. And feels quite icky after a while. Therefore, it's not gonna happen to Sam.

So far it's been going quite well! At the beginning of this semester, I found out just how busy I'm gonna be with class and how much work I'll be doing. And the old Sam would complain and whine and pout and be miserable. But not the new version, not Sam 2.0. Nope, New Sam is gonna push aside my feelings, work hard, stay positive and trust in my all-faithful and loving God above all things.

Can I just say, He's been so freakin good to me! I mean, I don't know when I'm going to get my next paycheck or how I'm going to pay my upcoming bills, but He still allows me to survive. And I'm baffled each time that happens. Why? I deserve to be miserably stressed and crying and worrying and angry and sad and pitiful, but He gives me the strength each day to live happily. Especially lately. I have not been in His Word on my own NEARLY as much as I should, and still He blessed me.

WOW.

And I'm going to serve at a DNOW this weekend and I'm SUPER PUMPED. I get to pour into younger girls for a whole weekend.

AND I've been desperately wanting a musical/worship outlet for me to serve in and the Lord has opened a door for me at the new church in town. I've been praying and praying and PRAYING that His will is done, whether I should serve there or not. I'm gonna be honest, I'm VERY nervous about the auditions, and last night I prayed that if it is His will, then great, but if not, please don't let me be completely humiliated during the auditions. And who knows, maybe He will use that as a way to humble me...we'll see!

anyways, that's just an update with what's going on in Sam's head, heart and life. I would very much appreciate your prayers. love you all.

Giving Him all the Glory,

Sama-lama-lama-la